manifesto

my goal in life is to learn as much as i can.

i need knowledge; i have an unquenchable thirst to know more and to comprehend the world around me. it's masochistic in its entirety; i love the unbearable pain of understanding that i'll never know it all because if i knew it all, there'd be nothing to learn.

this life is as hopeless as it is rich, as meaningful as it is obsolete. everything means anything and therefore means absolutely nothing at all. that leaves it up to us to figure it all out.

as i previously mentioned, i once believed that my only talent was writing- that a pen and paper was my forever companion, and separation was not an option. on the other hand, i tirelessly heard how foolish it was of me to aspire to teach literature since there is no money in that craft, yet it was the only thing i was good at. it was not until two years before this that i realized that an unrealistic and contradictory society stifled my potential, and it was that day that the world of mathematics enamored me. i made connections in my brain that only drew me closer and closer to the poeticness of the craft, only to realize that i've never viewed STEM in this way. english was always the whimsical, creative pursuit whereas STEM was for the pragmatists of the world, and i had no business mixing that, until i did.

i watched the creation of the unit circle and all i could think about was how something so simple, so mundane could've created the blueprint for the entirety of trigonometry today. how a circle with a radius of one- just one held so much meaning. it spoke to me, moved me even, teaching me that sometimes, it's the smaller things we overlook that actually seem to mean the most of all.

there's this societal division that forces us to specialize, to choose a "passion" and run with it. what if i told you that math and english language arts were two sides of the same coin?

i want to do it all. i want to die happy, knowing that i was the physicist but i was also the bookstore owner, that i was the starving artist and also the wise historian.

in a world packed with so much knowledge, how could i be told to just choose one?